A thousand lies penetrate my soul,
Like knives they twist and tear at my being,
I grow weak and cry out, but no one is listening,
They are all too busy speaking,
Speaking through the knives held between their teeth,
They are trying so desperately to make their lies a reality,
Even as blood pours out of their own mouths,
And you, my most trusted friend,
You with the most deadly weapon of all,
A blade tipped with poison,
Fermented with years upon years of a trust that I thought we shared, now spoiled,
As I fall to my knees I can only manage to say but one thing,
Et tu, Brute?
I bear a cross on my back of disappointment and hate,
it is the cross of my father,
and his cross bears my fate,
to die alone, and to die angry,
filled with anxiety and despair,
with paranoia and regrets,
the weight is almost impossible to bear,
in carrying this cross,
the one I took from my father,
at least I have solace in that I wish to be unlike my father,
for him happiness and love will never suffice,
the lies that destroyed him are truth in his eyes,
I know I still have time to change,
and change I must try,
or by the weight of this cross I will most surely die
Starry Eyes Held Close to a Flame by Oblivinity, literature
Literature
Starry Eyes Held Close to a Flame
We walk along the shore,
lively, though not quickly,
one hand each shared in an embrace,
our smiles mirror the stars,
a joyous feeling pulled forth from eternity,
it soon begins to rain,
but we neither slow down or quicken,
we merely continue on,
the fire in our hearts will lead us to our destination
The Strongest Vibrations Within My Own Head by Oblivinity, literature
Literature
The Strongest Vibrations Within My Own Head
A distant humming,
quiet at first,
then louder,
a cacophony of sound,
similar to a parade of 1,000 flies,
buzzing in concordance with one another,
growing louder still,
am I going crazy?
I do not ask aloud,
later, a phone clutched like a brass knuckle in my hand,
to dial for help or strangle myself with the cord?
as the sound grows even louder still,
the time for a decision is now,
I hang up the phone,
I would rather suffer than ask for help,
I would rather go crazy than kill myself,
it's all the same in the end.
She tore up her web,
Ready to move on again,
She wasn't catching any flies,
It was time for her to rebuild,
To take her plans elsewhere,
In this dusty corner she was growing old,
The spider crossed paths with other beings on her journey,
But never once a fly,
Had they all died?,
Spider-days and spider-nights crept through times plan,
And on her journey she was soon crushed by the god of her home, a man,
She would be found by the flies.
Drop in, drop out,
set something ablaze,
and then put it out,
the fire was in your eyes,
and yet it was me who burned for you,
scalding and in pain,
you used me up until not even the embers remained,
you set me aflame,
but never put me out,
you just wanted to watch my matchstick soul burn itself out,
I thought the intensity in your eyes was righteousness,
I thought it was truth,
but now I doubt everything,
and will always regret my youth,
if you have any remorse at all,
take my ashes and bury them far away,
bury them somewhere cold, that has never experienced a one-sided love's pain,
the warmth of my decomposition will win against that o
Sitting out on the plains,
and right above my head,
there is a 747 screaming,
but all I can think is that I should be dead,
walking in the past,
with no eyes to see,
trying to look for the place where you were set free,
but I have no sense,
won't you please guide me?
I'm lost without heaven,
and maybe heaven's lost without me,
tried to get there with that 747,
but it left the airstrip without me,
I remember the scorched patch of earth,
where they found your body,
they dragged me all the way out here just to see,
they told me...
they told me that you had been set free,
i ignored the burns,
i ignored the blackened flesh,
i i
with or without you,
either way, tomorrow will be better than today,
all I can say is hey,
I believe it,
and it's true,
I do,
because with or without you,
either way, tomorrow will be better than today
I can't keep holding myself back,
I have a life to live,
no need to forgive,
maybe one day I'll find happiness with you,
but if I never do,
I'll go forward,
and try not to look back,
and I'll find happiness in that,
somewhere
with or without you,
either way, tomorrow has to be better than today
I look towards you,
and find I can't look away,
this feeling is new,
and stronger every day,
but then you pull away,
what can I say?
my feelings for you,
left to be expressed another day
How do you tell someone they mean the world to you,
and make them know that what you say is true?
I wish this was easy,
but nothing worth having is ever easy,
atleast that's what they say, anyway,
so I'll write these words for you,
and hope you see this poem through,
And I'm trying, everyday,
to tell you this,
but it's harder than it seems,
and I'm tearing at the seams,
why can't I bring myself,
to tell you myself,
that I love you?
A thousand lies penetrate my soul,
Like knives they twist and tear at my being,
I grow weak and cry out, but no one is listening,
They are all too busy speaking,
Speaking through the knives held between their teeth,
They are trying so desperately to make their lies a reality,
Even as blood pours out of their own mouths,
And you, my most trusted friend,
You with the most deadly weapon of all,
A blade tipped with poison,
Fermented with years upon years of a trust that I thought we shared, now spoiled,
As I fall to my knees I can only manage to say but one thing,
Et tu, Brute?
I bear a cross on my back of disappointment and hate,
it is the cross of my father,
and his cross bears my fate,
to die alone, and to die angry,
filled with anxiety and despair,
with paranoia and regrets,
the weight is almost impossible to bear,
in carrying this cross,
the one I took from my father,
at least I have solace in that I wish to be unlike my father,
for him happiness and love will never suffice,
the lies that destroyed him are truth in his eyes,
I know I still have time to change,
and change I must try,
or by the weight of this cross I will most surely die
Starry Eyes Held Close to a Flame by Oblivinity, literature
Literature
Starry Eyes Held Close to a Flame
We walk along the shore,
lively, though not quickly,
one hand each shared in an embrace,
our smiles mirror the stars,
a joyous feeling pulled forth from eternity,
it soon begins to rain,
but we neither slow down or quicken,
we merely continue on,
the fire in our hearts will lead us to our destination
The Strongest Vibrations Within My Own Head by Oblivinity, literature
Literature
The Strongest Vibrations Within My Own Head
A distant humming,
quiet at first,
then louder,
a cacophony of sound,
similar to a parade of 1,000 flies,
buzzing in concordance with one another,
growing louder still,
am I going crazy?
I do not ask aloud,
later, a phone clutched like a brass knuckle in my hand,
to dial for help or strangle myself with the cord?
as the sound grows even louder still,
the time for a decision is now,
I hang up the phone,
I would rather suffer than ask for help,
I would rather go crazy than kill myself,
it's all the same in the end.
She tore up her web,
Ready to move on again,
She wasn't catching any flies,
It was time for her to rebuild,
To take her plans elsewhere,
In this dusty corner she was growing old,
The spider crossed paths with other beings on her journey,
But never once a fly,
Had they all died?,
Spider-days and spider-nights crept through times plan,
And on her journey she was soon crushed by the god of her home, a man,
She would be found by the flies.
Words flow,
but I can never tell if they plan to stay with me or go,
the one time I can completely rely on them,
is on paper,
maybe my one true friend,
paper remembers every mark that is made,
and it never makes change,
it lets me be me,
it sets expression free,
the pen might not physically be mightier than the sword,
but it has just as much or more power to affect anything,
even words can kill,
words can make beginnings,
and they can make ends,
alter our life,
and that of our friends
words can be direct,
words can be coy,
words can create,
words can destroy
I jumped into the abyss,
a black and empty sea,
trying to save you,
but now you have to save me,
I don't know what I've gotten into,
but i wish it would end,
nothing is easy,
unless it's all pretend,
why can't this be easy,
why can't you save me?
maybe you're too busy trying to save yourself,
or maybe you're saving someone else,
you're my last resort,
I'm falling further every day,
this downward spiral never ending,
it's the price I have to pay,
why is my love a one-sided game?
maybe I'm to blame,
but you led me on,
further every day,
you're the reason why I came,
I jumped into the abyss,
a black and empty sea,
trying t
Everywhere I look,
backstabbers and liars,
starting fires,
All of my friends,
--what friends?--
these people I trust,
--rust--
I surround myself with my friends,
--merely enemies kept close--
loyalty and honesty,
--betrayals and lies--
these friends of mine,
--would leave me to the flies--
These people I know,
--who?--
are with me for life
--where'd they go?--
It's do or die,
and when you lie,
you choose the latter,
you choose not to matter,
you're dead to me
Just too bad though,
it's a never-ending cycle,
because everywhere I look,
backstabbers and liars,
starting fires
Once upon a time there was this girl,
I wanted her to be my everything,
I was her nothing,
I couldn't bring myself to talk to her and it destroyed me,
everyday i went without her my body and mind rebelled,
I couldn't eat,
I couldn't sleep,
I needed her,
she was my everything
Love,
a parasite,
without her I was weak,
I died inside,
weak,
never knowing how it was to feel strong,
she was my light at the end,
all I could do was pretend,
pretend that happily we would live without an end,
I loved her,
and love betrayed me,
she stabbed me,
she mutilated me,
she tortured me,
she cut me,
she imprisoned me,
she burned me,
she
I am a nonconformist,
when you look to the left,
I look to the right,
When you vote for the peace I vote for the fight,
I am a noncomformist,
I am different from you,
when you wear white I wear black,
I'm an individual,
Nonconformists ARE conformists,
just covered in a layer of paint,
they think they are different but really they're not,
How can you be different when there's a group of people,
just like you,
that do everything you do,
look at you,
all dressed in reds and pinks and blacks,
you're an individual,
Oh now wait,
let us look to the left,
there's a kid over there,
well now,
he looks a lot like you,
funny isn't i
Listen, listen please
I am trying to tell you
What rots in my mind like disease
For I am a tiny insect
Shouting against a tidal wave of noise
Every each message
Sounds obvious to me
But gets lost in translation
Unnoticed in the messy sea
Simple communication
Is a concept so alien
That I choke
With the intensity
Of trying to speak
In so much of a whisper
In the little things I say
Wrapped in layers of icy code
The subtext
The tiny footnote blurs
I speak
Hear me, hear me, please
Can't you tell I'm empty?
I thought, long ago, that you broke my heart. But you didn't. You stole it away. You stole my heart, and the silence of its non-beating is terrible to behold. There's nothing left inside now. No heart, no soul, nothing. Just flesh and bones, a smiling shell. Gaping and empty.
Can't you realise I'm lying?
I don't mean the words that slip from my lips. I wish you well, wish you the best, wish you happiness without me. But that's all just what you want to hear. I'm telling you these things to make you love me, even though you never will, no matter how much much time I spend lying.
Can't you see I'm broken?
Shattere
Hapless as a moth I was hypnotized
by the smoker sitting in the dark
caught in the luminance of his eyes
my gaze never strayed from the flickering spark.
He spoke a language of secret hymns
but like devil's tongues they turned to lies,
my gaze never strayed from the flickering spark,
caught in the luminance of his eyes.
Kneeling before his alter of sacrifice
wayward souls who bare his mark,
caught in the luminance of his eyes
my gaze never strayed from the flickering spark.
Scorched to the bone but still alive
I penetrated through his guise,
my gaze never strayed from the flickering spark
caught in the luminance of his eyes.
Writer Who Hates Words by Could-Not-Care-Less, literature
Literature
Writer Who Hates Words
I hate lines
I hate boxes
I hate labels
I HATE WORDS
I am a writer that hates words
I am an artist that hates beauty
I am a poet that hates expression
A loathing for description
Is there a reason?
Yes
But as I discussed
I loathe reason and logic
So I will not let tell
Filling The Void with Words by Could-Not-Care-Less, literature
Literature
Filling The Void with Words
Brevity is your friend
Short simple sweet
Powerful message
Well-crafted artisan work
Emotions are the core
Of what poems are
After all
The finest restaurants
Have the smallest dishes
That is not me
Not why I write poetry
It's too long
Reader is bored
Too many words
Not enough song
Too bad
I write to control
No emotion to the reader
Selfish outlet for me
This wondrous realm of letters
Is nothing but refuge
I am starving for clarity
And...
The written word of art and meaning
Is the equivocal expression
Of a buffet
I keep telling myself that I will get more involved in writing poetry but the inspiration keeps slipping away. Hopefully college life will grant some new ideas to write about.
In other news I am pretty excited to start playing D&D for the first time in my life, adventures there might inspire me to attempt a few short stories of my own.
Thanks for reading, and good luck on your own endeavors!
I've felt a little more poetic lately, hoping to improve as a writer, maybe pick up where I left off. Though my inspirations aren't necessarily of a bright nature, and I hope they don't 'cause me to dwell too deeply on the melancholy aspects of life.
Hey all,
So I've gotten into the habit of checking my deviantArt account every couple of days (go me!), and I'm liking what I'm seeing. The dA community is amazing really, much better than I've even found by just staying within the group of people I know in person. I'm slowly convincing myself that Facebook and Twitter are evil, but it's more of a disturbing revelation than anything. The internet allows us to stay anonymous, and as such we can make great acts of charity, maybe give advice to someone we'll never meet in person, and change their life. But all I'm seeing is the opposite of this. Just because you have an account on some website,